Friday, October 30, 2009

An Unamed Road.

Leaves of a hazy yellow, fall to the ground.
As brisk winds nip at our noses,
I ask you, "Where is it we are headed?"
And you reply only to point at the endless road ahead.
Our hands hold tight, as the warmth of your smile grasps what my eyes covet for.
You lean in to leave a signature among my lips.
The atmosphere and sight itself begin to fade.
Emptiness is now before my eyes, leading confusion.
The sky is dark, with only holes of light to guide my path.
The road ahead has now sifted into an ever long fog,
Blinding my sight on what may come next
A whisper in the wind speaks through the soft tone of your voice,
Intriguing me to not to lose motivation.
Where ever you may be, you are always there awaiting,
My presence.
I know not where,
Nor when our acquaintance will be held.
But I, nor you, shall give up and surrender the result of this long journey.
I put one foot in front of the other, walking without knowledge of the obstacles ahead.
As Trust guides me,
Optimism picks me up when I fall,
While Hope pushes me forward to find you,
I am on my way.
Do not lose grip of the persistance of Love.
For it is all we have left in this world.
Without Love, life itself is pointless.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Nothing more, nothing less.

Loving you would be like a musician loving one who is deaf.
Yet, you remain the only one who has captured my heart and fed it the love it desires.
You intrigue me more and more each time I am within your presence.
If only you could see past the sandy shore and onto the horizon;
Your ignorance to the meaning of existence is greater than you have perceived.
Oh, how I stay in thought of who you are, rather than who you present.
Heavy breaths ease my thought, my thought of you, as I ponder solely on love;
Nothing more, nothing less.
Love like yours is what I strive for.
I remain at a loss for words as our hands hold tight but our eyes hold opposed sights.
We attempt to walk in the direction portrayed by our mind, but we gain no progress.
Our hearts keep our souls from dissevering and our eyes keep our beliefs a burden.
I gaze at the sight of our being; what is there to build off of?
We are an inconceivable pair upon an inconceivable situation.
Surrounded by confusion and contradiction, passion is all we have left.
With a love like ours, that may be all we need.
Is it enough to get by?
Or will it only complicate and distort ripples to effect us within the time to come?
You seem to sweet to leave a bitter taste.
But neither of us want to be left with a result we cannot withstand;
Therefore we continue our lives as opposite magnets separated by glass.
Nothing more, nothing less.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Echoes Calling You.

I scream for someone to hear me
But no one understands, no one cares
All I hear now are echoes I cannot bare

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Soul Image

Is the beauty from within your soul reflecting on your outter image?
When my eyes come across the majestic allurement of your precious face,
a beat becomes a rythm as my heart races.
All other thoughts are muted,
as my mind is consumed by your aesthetic essesence.
I have never witnessed someone's image to be as breathe taking as yours.
You leave me lost for words.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Under City Twilight

I walk beneath reflections of light 
Pondering, what is to come in time 
From within the darkness, I guide my shadow 
Confused and blind on where to go 
Living to die or dying to live 
We are all in search of tomorrow 

Breathe upon clouds that have not come 
Life's request upon us is not yet done 
The present is only life trapped in a capsule of the past 

Determining our thoughts and choices of future acts 
Our future is a present of the past 
We all want more but pleasures never last 
Life slips by too fast

Thursday, July 30, 2009

When is now?

I walk beneath reflections of light,
Pondering, what is to come in time.
From within the darkness, I guide my shadow,
Confused and blind on where to go.
Living to die or dying to live,
We are all in search of tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

"Break The Glass"

You drop my watch into the deepest blue
You have not the slightest idea how much I love you
I am aching, alone on the floor
But I'd rather ache for love than leave it to ignore
I see your eyes in my reflection
On the other side, leaving me in question

Why haven't you broken through to see
That we were meant to be?
That we were meant to be...

Break the glass
Break the glass
Time must not pass
For this breath i hold for you is my last
Break the glass
Break the glass

This glass between us is not reality
I've seen you
Why can't you see me?
I hold the lock and you hold the key
But all that remains is me screaming
For you to see
For you to hear
For you to feel

Break the glass
Break the glass
Time must not pass
For this breath i hold for you is my last
Break the glass
Break the glass

Thursday, June 18, 2009


I find myself alone,
in this half-lit room.
secluded, my thoughts have taken me once again.
while florescent, green leaves outside
breathe the essence of the wind,
I gaze out the window of dreams,
from the floor of reality.
and from within my view,
a motion blurred face stares me in the eye.
its voice, piercing my soul,
speaks to me.
it tells me to not give up.
this window will open, once I obtain the strength needed.

my choices shape the strength to come.
hope is all I have left,
as I strive to proceed in a path of beneficial decisions.
Yet I still discover myself sitting here,
and for what reason?
to continuously gape at my stenciled silhouette on the wall?
I sit here thinking.
Shaping my future by thought,
as thoughts become reality.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Solid Mirage.

Leave what is considered and follow what is true.

I've had you before.
What have I done?
You are one that i could fall for, over and over again.
As the cast outside fades to a shade
only known by the light of the moon,
I close my eyes.
Time hastily sifts through my surroundings.
I sleep my way to tomorrow,
hoping i am one day closer of grasping your presence.
Like the sun beyond the horizon,
your twilight, ever planning to keep me intrigued,
it leaves me in awe, giving me inspiration to live.
The innocence that your eyes portray is stolen by the avail of your lips.
That sweet smile,
it sends a warm, vibrant emotion through me;
it grabs my soul and drowns me beneath the sound of a beating heart.
my beating heart.
it bleeds for you.
but what it longs for can never be simple.
its given its complexity by the virtue of fate.
You search near, as i am far.
My time is only moments spent in thought of you.
one after the other, i find myself losing today in spite of tomorrow,
craving what i feel might never be.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Sore Sight

If we are capable of making choices
and shaping the world in our own image,
its obvious we are more than human.
We have souls.
So why do we waste lifetimes conflicting over what we see?
Why can't we all see beyond the reputation, money, and skin color?
Look deeper into what you see.
Don't judge the structure of what keeps someone or something alive.
Feel the essence of what brings them into existence.

Be more than human.
Be you.

Friday, May 22, 2009

"Between Truth And Faith"

Something so beautiful
Something so beautiful
Something so beautiful
To me
To me

Im looking in all the wrong places
Not knowing why my heart races
for you
When I am aware you
Will never change
For anyone
Or anything

Im looking in all the wrong places
Not knowing why my heart races
for you
When I am aware you
Will never change
For anyone
Or anything

You prefer Truth over Faith
The truth is I am too late
You stare at me
Without a clue
As isolation leaves me in thought
Not knowing what to do

Im looking in all the wrong places
Not knowing why my heart races
for you
When I am aware you
Will never change
For anyone
Or anything

You're leaving so much
For so little
While I'm caught in the middle
Between truth and faith
The truth is, I'm still too late
To save you from this world
I hear your shrill
To live again
But you refuse
To take my hand

How can something so beautiful
Something so beautiful
Something so beautiful
live for nothing?

"Pick Me Up"

I sit here alone in this room
I feel theres nothing i can do

So I stare into this blue
Falling from my face
Onto scars I have subdued

Your eyes, they console me
I know you are here,
Yet I still feel so lonely
I lie (on this floor) stuporous
You pick me up and tell me the past is worthless
You tell me to let my memories char
Yet I still rid scabs to reminisce on scars

Pick me up and shake me
Let me know its okay
I dont want to do this anymore
I need something to live for

Pick me up and shake me
Let me know its okay
Kiss me one more time
Before I blow my mind
Before you light me up inside
and watch me slowly die
I need to know that I'm alive...

(scream start)
...right now!
Pick me up and shake me
Let me know its okay
There's only one way to escape
I hope its not too late
[for you to]
(scream end)
Pick me up and shake me
Let me know its okay
To open my eyes
let me realize
I can escape this blue
That I'm not lost or confused
I dont want to lose you

"A Way To Believe"

Do you wanna find her?
Do you wanna find him?
Do you wanna find a life thats full of happiness?

Do you wanna find hope?
Do you wanna find bliss?
Is this the life that you always wanted to live?
always wanted to live...

Truth in one hand
Faith in the other
Believe in the world and you shall exist
Believe in Him and you shall live

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Aligation of Thoughts

What if i tell you im not like the others?
I cant control myself
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
Not the boy I was
The boy I am is just venting, venting
Dear gravity, you held me down in this starless city
There in your eyes
Under the cold streetlights
I will be the one that's gonna find you
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Tell me are you free
You know my name
You know my face
You'd know my heart
If you knew my place
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
I let you slip away
I don’t know if I will find you
Can’t believe I’m right behind you
So I..ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swore I’d never give in
But I can't refuse
What I really meant to say
Is I love you
City lights are burning bright behind me
Only to roam
Like walking into a dream
I found bliss in ignorance
All these words they make no sense
I'm at a place called Vertigo
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something I can feel
When you stand up and feel the warmth
but the sunshine never comes
I'll end this day
I'll splatter color on this gray

If you want to get out alive
You say you got a real solution
Why'd you have to go
And let it die
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around
I dont wanna run away
I've been running way too long
When you're here with me
Something hits me
I know that we belong
In this life
Lyrics - in order:
Foo Fighters - The Pretender
Three Days Grace - Animal I have Become
Fall Out Boy - Tiffany Blews
Foo Fighters - Long Road To Ruin
Skillet - Whispers In The Dark
Thrice - Firebreather
Breaking Benjamin - Follow Me
Slipknot - Duality
Maroon 5 - If I Never See Your Face Again
Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody
Foo Fighters -Best Of You
Crossfade - Cold
Jet Black Stare - Ready To Roll
City Sleeps - Not An Angel
Avenged Sevenfold - Afterlife
Linkin Park- One Step Closer
U2 - Vertigo
Metallica - The Day That Never Comes
Three Days Grace - Get Out Alive
The Beatles - Revolution
Foo Fighters - Let It Die
Foo Fighters - My Hero
Jet Black Stare - In This Life

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Broken Dreams

What happens to a dream deferred?

Does it still exist

like a breeze unseen?

Or has it vanished

And then been forgotten?

Does it pursue a second chance?

Or is its only desire to be remembered?

Like a soul leaving the body

Maybe it continues its journey

Or maybe it just dies.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Sixty Sicks

I am sick of the sight of you.

You are always staring back,

even when i am not.

Day one - you were here.
Today you were here.
You are everywhere.


A number with no meaning,
means everything to me.

You have scarred me.

Are you only coincidental;
a pigment of my imagination?
or is this real?

For what purpose do you follow me?

Am i supposed to know?
I am sick of the sight of you.
Yet you have opened my eyes,
to live for a reason,
an uncomprehending purpose,
unraveling before my eyes.
Your brutish scent keeps me intrigued.
I only hope you guide me the right path.
For there is no escaping your presence.
You are always here.
You will always be here.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

A Revelation

As the fire consumes him inside,
He is consuming the fire.
He arose within the darkness,
Staring deep into nothing,
Only wishing for something.
What this something is,
is beyond himself.
For all that is shown is a corpse shell.
He is alive,
Yet already dead.
In reality he has no reason to live,
but only to die.
So why does he live?
Not all is consumed by the fire.

Thursday, March 12, 2009


March twelfth.

March twelfth, nineteen hundred and ninety three.

March twelfth, two thousand and nine.

Six years since only having a single digit in my age.

I have been breathing
5,846 days.

Where have those days gone?

Has my imaginary friend,
with the deformity of an arm,
consumed them from my memory?

This day marks a new beginning.

I shall pursue my thoughts,
venturing towards the life that has always taken my breath away.

A life lit with hope all the way past the horizon.

Where lights bring the city to life.

And glistening tunnels never end.

A life of sightseeing...
and imagination becoming reality.

it is now eight minutes until my wish.

Now seven.

11:05 p.m. is the time.

What shall i wish...

Not wealth in currency.

Not anything following the silhouette of materialistic items.

I wish...
for the life i dream of.

Travel the world,
In awe of the worlds wonders..

Finding the true identity of a lingering shadow ever following me.

Living for something greater than myself.

Learning why we exist.


Ever wondering.

It is now 11:10 p.m.

11:11 p.m.

11:12 p.m.

Somebody Else.

You are the only one I can look up to
The only one I can see
You're always there
Bright and gleaming
You make me feel alive
The way you take my breath away
I wish I could see you
every single day
but this lifeless haze
It covers your face
It covers your mysterious ways
I want to know every aspect about you
know your every thought
Do you really exist?
Even if not,
you are the only one I can trust,
With my every thought,
My every secret,
You complete me.
You are the galactic abyss.
The stars above.
My hope.
My love.
My life.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Februrary 5th

Its thursday, february 5th.
The air is cold.
The weather seems as if it resembles me in a way I barely understand.
Dazed and confused,
The sky looks as if it is filled with warmth
but its staring ahead into an oncoming storm.
The storm will bring rain and and darkness,
But this darkness is more than just an era of black and white,
Its a period of recovering,
For when the storm withers away,
A new day will come,
A day of prosperity and hope.
A day when the horizon will gleam behind the mountains of our blissful valley.
Such a day only comes once in a great while.
That day has not come yet.
But until it does,
I sit under this charcoal sky,

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Words of Passion

nor can anyone else,
really live without belief.
Belief in something greater than ourselves alone..
belief in Life..

I sit here,
writing as time gradually passes by,
envisioning about life beyond this.
I have met many people in my existence of almost 16 years,
some putting all their faith into one thing
some putting all their faith into nothing.
Is there any point to life? Or are we just an accident waiting to destroy itself?
So many questions, yet life is too short to answer them all.
I want to do the most I can with my life before its too late...but I’m just sitting here...
instead of actually pursuing these words of passion.
Hoping they will come to me…just fall in my arms...
I have no other way to find my passion in find her.
My body goes limp, with a warm breathless feeling when she comes to mind...
as if I have known her my whole life.
She has a smile worth dying for.
Her eyes,
more than just a God given gift to see,
they show her soul.
Looking into her eyes only I can see her true self:
seeing life for more than it is,
She loves like no other,
Breathes like no other,
She is her own.
She is mine.
With every expression,
living movement she makes,
She keeps me in awe...and takes my breath away...
she has no effort to...yet she does it with every heart beat.
She is the reason I am alive.
I question myself if she is only an image of thought.
but my imagination is not vivid enough to keep me alive.
She must be real.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

With Perception and Acumen;

15 years since my birth,
i stand here staring at the earth,
wondering why i'm here,
what ever the purpose,
i welcome it without fear.
this world has shown its true face to me,
its not somewhere pleasant,
not somewhere i want to be,
but i have no choice,
this world gives more than what it shows.
this world gives me my voice.

without this world,
without men or women,
without life or experience,
without God,
we would be nothing.

days create memories faster
than the brain can comprehend in wording.
so fast, yet slow enough to appreciate;
time falls through our fingers like sand on a windy day.
live for what you want.
life only comes once.

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